I am
halfway through week 37. Everybody around keeps telling me to enjoy these last
weeks, because afterwards, everything will be different. Yep, that’s what we
do. Hubby and I spend time together. Some pretty raunchy, some is just reserved
for talking, often in bed, head to head. This might lead to other things, which
I still cannot get enough of.
Now and then I thought I should be annoyed
about my uber-sexdrive. … Actually I am not at all annoyed, on the contrary, I love
it. Hubby is obliging, too, which makes this part pretty easy. :) Some might
think I am just crazy for sex, which is true, but this is also very special,
because it doesn’t cause embarrassment. After all, I am horny as hell 24/7 and
still, hubby is more than willing to help out. Uhm, I have to give clear signals by
now; maybe he is worn out a little?
Nevertheless,
it doesn’t make me feel awkward with him, which is more important for me than I
usually bother to tell hubby. I do, now and then, but then again I do not
actively seek to talk about my endless sexual needs as a topic per se. We talk
about it, sure, but this has turned from something I wondered about when it was
new, to something I just want done, but not discussed too much. It just has to
happen naturally, so that I don’t end up feeling awkward. I don’t know exactly
when this changed, but it did.
Later on,
when we have adapted to being three, with baby around, I am sure that hubby
will play around with me, in other ways. He will let me feel a lot who is in
control. We have, of course, discussed these things over and over again. Still,
I can see that hubby also suffers in some moments, since we don’t do as much dd
as we want to. We do our best, I work hard to be good, obedient, to please, and
let’s face it, I am also glad that I have my way of doing some things here. I
am held accountable for some of what I do, but definitely not for all. In a
way, this leniency also puts some strain on us. I for one love it and hate it.
Yes, we
enjoy our time together, with family, with friends. And the days are simply
packed, but in some way, hubby and I are placed on hold. We are waiting for
baby to happen. Sounds strange, but we are waiting for the action to get
started. It means something completely new and wonderful and hopefully, the
return of something we already had, which was also wonderful.
I hope
everybody has a wonderful start into the week.
Ah, this time of anticipation sounds so exciting, Nina! It's like waiting for Christmas morning, I'm sure...you want it to arrive so badly, but the excitement of waiting is half the fun! Glad you're taking advantage of pregnant sex drive :)
ReplyDeleteHi Autumn, you are absolutely right, if anything I take fullest advantage of my sex drive. I think that I really push the limits with it. About the waiting, yes, true, buuuut, I'd love for the waiting to end now. Being this bulky starts getting on my nerves now and then, although I can still say that I enjoy every moment. There is not much time left and baby will be there and I can't wait for that to happen!
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I know the feeling of suspended animation quite well. NOW, ( ahem in best motherly voice available) your hormones may very well be out of whack for a longer while than you expected after having the baby. You may be completely exhausted, from many reasons, not just sleepless nights, but sore breasts, healing 'bits', night sweats expelling hormones. I am not telling you this to scare you- and none of it may happen to you. Hubby may have a different view for a bit~ uber protective/cherish mode. ALL of these things may hamper your start back down the path to the Dd you both love and hate.
ReplyDeleteWhat I want you to know *if* these things happen to you, it is completely normal. If you manage to squeak in a minute, lean on us here. Many women have gone through this post pregnancy here. It can happen but you don't have to stay there.
Now.....fun times ahead! I envy you. Yes I have already been there, ( minus the dd aspect at the time) but our oldest just started his final year of high school. Some days I wish I could go back for a few hours to all the 'newness' and wondrous excitement of it all. To hold for the first time the little miracle your love has created. Such a truly, truly exceptional time.
As always, signing off with
BEST OF LUCK
willie
Hi Willie, you might just be right about the hormones. :-| I mean, if it is just about the time while healing, fine, but I am also a little afraid that I am not in the mood for anything naughty after all is well again. I can barely imagine that right now, because this is as far away from my current ways, as possible, but just the thought of it is something I dislike. ... Well, well, I better use my drive as long as I have it! :-) Hubby has been very supporting, and I think/hope he will go on like that, so maybe he will give me all the time I need. From what he is like, I am sure he does. He can be pushy, but only when there is the adequate resistance from my side. :-) What I'd really hate would be to leave the wrong impression, by turning him away, just because I might not be in the mood. We'll have to talk about that in advance, before it really might happen. I think if I told hubby that too late, he might really misunderstand that. Oh, wait, but then again, he might be grateful for a major break from the sexual marathon he also had to master! :D
DeleteI'll surely squeak in several minutes to tell everybody what's going on with us here. Thank you for your lovely offer and I gladly take all support I can get! Hey, and thank you for the good wishes. I absolutely appreciate that (I am a shamrock fan, because it is a symbol for good luck) and can't wait for baby to be here. I only feel that I have waited so long by now that it really is time for us to get her out, and I also want my belly back. Snuggling-time here we come!
The last year of high school sounds exciting to me. There are so many things going on, but I have not really thought about that from the parent's perspective before. I think 'if' baby is a girl, she will have a pretty good protector in her dad. Maybe too good in some moments (just a guess). Wow, there are so many good/some not so good things ahead, that it makes me smile. Thank you once more Willie,
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Hi Nina, I'm sure it feels like you are on hold just waiting now ... but so exciting! Wishing you all the very best.
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Hi Roz, it really is like that, we are waiting, and although it could start any moment, actually my doc said that chances are higher for me that instead of being early, baby will be a little bit later. It doesn't have to be, but could, as first-timers more often go beyond their due date. But this is no complaint from my side at all. I mean, yes, sure I'd love to hold baby in my arms, but then again, I am just grateful that all is good. And it is exciting, maybe wearing me down a little by now, but defintely so awesome. :)
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Hi Nina,
ReplyDeleteBeing on hold is hard! But you have made it soooo very far in your journey. I know it seems like a long time, but Christmas will be here before you know it! And things WILL change, but I'm betting they will be mostly good changes. The minor(and sometimes major)inconveniences that new babies cause in marriage/dd/life are more than made up for in the smell of baby's head, her first smile, all the little things. If you think you love the little bundle now, just wait! You are going to experience a whole new kind of love that will hit you like a big ocean wave over and over. And this is awesome! I'm sure you will have plenty of people giving you advice and helping out, but if you ever need advice of any sort, please know that there are several of us "seasoned" moms here in the Land that will gladly listen :) And I totally agree about not wanting sex to be awkward. There are some things they just need to understand without words!
Hi River, you are absolutely right, and I do not complain about waiting. Well, maybe a little, but not seriously. Currently I feel like being able to deal with all the inconveniences that might happen, because they are all part of being a family and that's definitely worth everything. I can't wait to smell baby! ... I sometimes use baby's lotion because it is a really good one and I love the smell of it. So in a way, I know what baby smells like. :-D And I can't wait for this new kind of love, either. I love her now and once I can hold her, this will be even more. I will surely ask for advice and considering my current posts, probably also whine a little. Yes, the sex that we have now is different (naturally) and important, and I think if I felt awkward in these moments, this would make me unhappy. I am glad that hubby does not give such a feeling at all!
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