Saturday, June 25, 2016
After a lovely week we returned from our visit to my in-laws late last night, something around midnight, as we had to drive out of Hamburg. That made the whole trip an hour longer than it would have been otherwise. We girls are all tired today, Kate has managed to drink some milk, but fell asleep still latched on, Tilda was not the early bird she usually is either, and I could have slept on forever. I don’t know how he did it, but hubby was up early, fresh and cheerful, when I still felt crinkled and wrinkled. He enjoys being here somewhere in nowhere, because it is like another holiday trip for him.
Being back with the family was awesome and we enjoyed that we had so much quality time. I love my parents in law dearly, and wished we’d live closer. Due to all the Brexit things going on when we were there one of the running jokes was that we might be back sooner than expected, if Britain decided to leave the EU. Well, they did, and I wonder where we’ll be in five years. And would I have to ask for a British or only for an English passport by then? :) The trouble is, no matter where we live, we’d always have to fly to see the other half of the family. Flying?! Oh please, not that. The least British Airways could do is offer general anaesthetics to make the journey more pleasant. I’d appreciate this a lot.
Anyways, I have not been driving a car for a whole week, because nobody was willing to risk that, they say. Pfft ignorant lot. Actually it was only one of hubby’s brothers who said that, but the others giggled. Besides, my mother-in-law never would say this, and she’d even let me drive her car, though I declined politely after hubby’s warning expression. Or was it pleading? :)
Whatever. And then it was Friday again, the dreaded day of leaving. I absolutely don’t like that part, even less so because mil and fil have trouble with departures too. My mother-in-law and I did enough crying for three. :) Leaving the sweetest parents-in-law behind was so hard, I’ll never get used to this. The good news is that they'll come over in December. I can't wait for that.
Due to circumstances we’ll be outside the city for the summer. We hope that things will go back to normal in autumn, though I do not really know why they should, because the monster who is responsible for our move is still there and he’d have to be caught red-handed while approaching me in any form. That’s scary in itself, and I am also afraid of what might happen if hubby was the one who’d lay hands on the monster. I mean, I do not condone violence in any form, but I am relieved to have a husband who is able to protect us, because I fear for our safety here. Last time just seeing this guy let me freak out and run for the hills. Frustrating as it is, I feel pretty helpless because I cannot even keep calm when thinking about these things. It was nice to forget this stuff for a week, and being outside Hamburg lets me feel much better for the moment.
Today we went to the hospital to see granny. All of us, and I was happy to see her lying in her bed. My thoughts might have wished for her being in a better place at times, and I am not sure if this is something I should be ashamed of or not, because I love her. However, seeing her today was just good. She was simply there and that was comforting. Seeing granny was good, tomorrow I’ll probably tell her all about our trip, and during the week Amy will be here as well, so we’ll visit together. :)
Friday was supposed to be maintenance night, but I don’t think they would have liked that at the airport. So we had maintenance tonight, and instead of feeling sleepy as I should, I am somehow wide awake and feeling pleasantly relaxed. :)
Wishing you all a
Sunday, June 12, 2016
Finally, I find time to write something. I have not caught up on what you do, yet, and I am sorry for that. Somehow things are pretty busy for us, as seems to be normal now. :( However we have had a terrific time lately, the babies are awesome, Kate loves funny faces, she is so giggly and excited when we do that. Tilda has become pretty quick by now, I love how you can see that she is exploring all the time, and she has become a lovely little helper too. She knows how to put her own plate on the table, and at times Tilda puts socks into the sock drawer, instead of taking them out. :)
Things have settled down, which means that we have found our routine here, from visiting granny to baby gym, swimming, playdates, moments with friends, Amy comes visiting pretty often, too. Somehow she manages to squeeze in time, which is most awesome. Hubby has not had too much time lately, but at least we made the best out of the evenings. And in the upcoming week we’ll finally be off to the UK and spend time with the family. Woohoo!!!
So, things have been really good, and then suddenly we get a punch in the stomach, out of nowhere…
On Tuesday and Wednesday Amy, the babies and I have been picnicking in a park. We had time to talk, play with the girls, be a little lazy, enjoy the warm sun, but then I saw one of the monsters I wished I’d never ever see again in my whole life. I almost got a heart attack when this happened, and I was close to throwing up, just from seeing him between the trees, not even close to us. He had seen me, but went away when he had noticed that I had discovered him. Amy had seen him too and tried to calm me down, but that did not work too well. We left the park and I called hubby who came home immediately, because I was such a mess.
With someone around I feel safe, and with hubby I know we are absolutely safe. I loved the weekend, because he had time, and even when he worked, it was nice, since he was at home. What I do not like is feeling as if being watched when going to the supermarket. Maybe I am simply overreacting, and I hate that one of the monsters still holds so much power over me, that just seeing him at the other side of a park is enough to let me panic.
So, when we are back home from our trip, the babies and I will stay outside the city for a while, near granny’s home. I love my babies, hubby and Amy, and to protect them I’d do all I can, so that moving up north for a few weeks sounds like a minor inconvenience, until things have been sorted out. Actually this is not too different from our current life, because I do spend a lot of time near granny anyway (I’ll have plenty of time because I do not have to drive around that much. :) ). However I do not like that now it makes me feel like running away or hiding. I have not had to do that before, because the baddies were gone, and I thought they were gone for good.
I am so glad that we’ll be gone later next week. And I like that if there was someone stalking me, he’ll be very disappointed soon. :)
Wishing you a wonderful week,
Full of all the good things
Sunday, March 27, 2016
Hello. It's me! :)
I am sorry that I have not been here lately and do not find the time to comment in your blogs. I have read some, but still have to catch up on a lot of what has been going on in your lives. Somehow life has had a surreal touch for me throughout most of February and March, because of several things going on within the family. I am just glad that it was n o t because of me. :)
So, once early March was over, things got much better again quickly. Busy, but better. Somehow I find myself on the road a lot more again, commuting between our home in the city and granny's place, which is close to the coast. I am glad that I can be physically close to her, hold her hand, talk. I am still looking for reactions which cannot come, I know. :( The girls and I use the time when we are so close to the sea and we do have a walk along the coast. Uhm, that is, I do most of the walking, because most of the time Tilda is on her kiddyboard and enjoys the ride as I push the pram with baby. :)
Anyways, this is Easter, we have had two Easter egg hunts with Tilda and my nieces, Kate has been sleeping through these, probably because she is more into milk, and chocolate and sweets are not appealing to her yet. I hope you have a wonderful day, filled with all the good things in life.
Wishing you all a Happy Easter time
full of love.
Sunday, January 24, 2016
This is something Ana Vitsky did in January 2014, and since I love lists I thought I'd also give it a try. :) However, Ana did not want the typical answers that would come, so her rules say 'No friends, family, work, bubble baths, alcohol, or food.' For me, the idea behind this list is to think positively, which is awesome. :)
There is no order in it, I just let the thoughts come. If I did not count right it is because I am maybe a wee bit tired, but feeling better, which is because of Kate/Katharina and Tilda and hubby; in addition, my besty came over for a few days and helped (a lot!). So, Amy is definitely t h e major reason why I am tired but feeling in a good place with enough energy to write. I couldn't see granny yet, which I'd love to do this week together with Kate, but hubby and Amy have already vetoed this for the next days, and I'll also have to wait and see what my midwife will say tomorrow. All of them want the best for Kate and me, which makes it easy to do as told, although I can't wait to show granny our little one. :)
Ok, the list ...
1. The lovely smell of a baby!!! :)
Smell of leather
Strong, vivid colours
Looking at paintings
Round flowing shapes
The smell of catmint
A light summer breeze
Sleeping in a clean bed
The first sip of fresh water when you are really thirsty (is that food?)
Going to England (hm, this is about family, I guess)
Listening to Swedish
Listening to Gaelic
Watching Flamenco dancers
Wearing new shoes without blisters
Watching toddlers play
Playing with them! :)
Being hugged. You have no idea how susceptible this makes me.
Giving a loving hug
Cuddling toddlers :) ... I am stretching the rules, I know
Making a present
Being physically close to someone (not sex!)
Learning something new
Frozen cobwebs in the sun
Anticipation of a good girl spanking
Clean, folded laundry
Putting it into the wardrobe
Wearing clean and freshly laundered clothes
Leaving a plane alive after the flight
Finding my favourite childhood doll in a box
Working in the garden
Planting new flowers and waiting for them to grow
Painting and drawing pictures
Sculpting with clay and wondering what the product is meant to be :)
Sitting down after standing for hours
Singing favourite songs
Helping someone else to be happy
Creating something new
Finishíng a DIY project
Planning a sewing project
Looking at a self-made dress
Preparing a meal and being told that what I cooked was delicious :)
Creating connections and keeping them up (I am sorry for being away from here so much lately!)
Listening to the early birds at dawn
Holding a kitten or puppy
Laughing (the good kind of laughing)
Sitting under a sky full of stars with someone I trust and enjoying the moment (stretching everything here)
Sitting under a sky full of stars with someone I trust and enjoying the moment (stretching everything here)
54. Chocolate (that is not food, is it?)
54.1 If chocolate i s considered food and not soul-nourishment, I'd add blooming sunflowers :)
You know, not mentioning family and friends is sooo almost impossible when writing about what makes me happy, food almost as much. Hm, I think I need to diet soon. :)
Wishing you all a wonderful week!
Monday, January 18, 2016
Woohoo, today, we returned home from hospital. We, that is Hubby with Tilda - who is a big sister now - and Katharina, our beautiful second baby! After making me wait for nine days she finally thought it was about time to come last Friday, and after a rather quiet start into labour it went pretty quickly, we took only a good six hours from the first contractions to first kisses. She is sooo lovely and sweet, and healthy and always hungry. :)
We have already found out that she has a strong and loud voice, because after sleeping away her exhaustion she has been crying a lot, for no obvious reason. I guess the first nights at home will be shorter than short, but the doctor and midwife reassured us that all is ok with our sweetie. And tonight, Kathy has finally fallen asleep nicely without much fuss. :)
The discussions about her names have not stopped once between hubby and me. She has three names, like Tilda, and just like Tilda is just the short form for Mathilda, Katharina will probably end up with a short form as well. I like Kate a lot, probably because I am a fan of the British Princess, and there are some that I cannot use, because that would be too confusing (Katie and Cat are two nice ones that are already taken :) ! ).
Anyways, I'll try to catch up on you as soon as possible, but since the nights will be really short, I ask for leniency when my comments are completely lunatic! :) For now, we are just happy that Kathy is there and all went so well for us. ... Did I mention happy?! :)
Wishing you all a wonderful week!
Thursday, December 31, 2015
Arbitrary list of things that happen in my life:
1. My sister is overdue by now. Her due date was the 26th.
2. I am only one week away from my own due date. So, if my niece will wait a little longer and my little one (I'd say a girl, hubby says a boy, both of us say we'll love you no matter what, baby) will be a few days early, we could have a double birthday party. :)
3. Granny is waiting. We do visit her every day, and there is no change in her situation at all. On the one hand this is so sad that it makes me cry a lot, but on the other hand she does not give up on life and that's awesome.
4. When baby is there I'll show her to granny as soon as possible. Maybe she cannot see baby, but I'll make sure she'll feel, smell and hear her.
5. Silly fact: whenever I sing Eleanor Rigby I change the chorus from 'all the lonely people' to 'all the lovely people'. I like my version much better, because it is more positive and maybe because hubby laughs at me whenever he hears me doing this, like today.
6. Tilda has a new doll that she loves to pieces. Both ladies share the same bed. :)
7. Things are more than crazy in our family lately, because my sister and her family have to move soon, so everybody is trying to help.
8. Our freezer is full of pre-cooked meals. That was advice from Cat and DF when I was pregnant with Tilda and it was definitely awesome advice!
9. Next year, when baby is there and I am not nursing her anymore (2017?), I'll try coffee again. Apart from spankings this is what I have missed most. Well, I do miss chocolate a lot too, but can't have any, because heartburn. :)
10. Hear that?! Next year??? I am sorry for not being around much lately, but will try to be better again. But far more importantly,
I hope you all have a marvelous and peaceful
Happy New Year !
Thursday, December 24, 2015
Wishing you all love and connection, a hand to hold, someone to hug, a loving smile and a pleasant giggle :)
...so, basically, I'd love you to have the most awesome time you have ever had.
Merry Christmas to you
Not Mrs and Santa Claus, but lovely snowmen. A little snow just for tonight would have been great, but it is more spring-like instead. :)