Scary stuff

I have had an appointment with my doctor and since we are only two weeks away from our flight home, we discussed some of the things that could pose a problem. I already knew that some airlines demand papers from a doctor saying when the baby is due, and some airlines are unwilling to take women as passengers when they are too close to their due date.

But we also talked about preterm labor. Maybe I should not have asked, but I did because I am getting nervous again when I think about the flight to Britain. It will be a short flight, so I shouldn't bother, but I do, even though everything was fine last time, apart from hubby and his brothers' jokes about crashing planes, that is. 

Yes, I couldn't stop, I wanted to know what to look out for ... and got an answer. Since I am not week 37 yet, but only 27, I want to know when to call a doctor. I mean, it makes a huge difference whether you have cramps or your water breaks three months earlier than it should, doesn't it. My doctor said that I won't need the information, all will be fine. She has learned that her biggest job this time is to calm me down, because I am overanxious and I know that. Doesn't help me much to know this. "Just let nature have its way" is what I get to hear approximately three times per visit. Besides, so far, almost all tests were as average as possible, meaning that baby is perfectly fine (she has hiccups now too, or a tiny drum. :)  )

My doctor knows well enough why I am like this. She has been with me when things never worked out, which means we have spent much time together. She tells me what needs to be said, and sometimes that means to do some straight talking (a spanking would help, but she wouldn't do that). So, according to her, all will be fine when we fly home, and there is not a single reason even to assume that anything could go wrong. I do believe every word of what she said, but this does not mean that I am completely relaxed. ... And who says that believing her and sticking to my fears cannot happen at the same time?

Maybe I should not have asked her about preterm labour, because now it is stuck in my head. Maybe I should just try to relax again, but anything related to losing babies scares me to death. The topic is  serious for many and I am not able to give advice here, but maybe a simple request is acceptable. 

If you feel that anything is wrong with baby or you, please go and see your doctor, or at least call him/her. I have been running to mine more than I had to, and my doctor understood that and was with me, and with 35 you get the VIP treatment anyways. It is right and important to go and ask your doc, if you have the feeling something could be wrong. Hopefully, the message will always be that it was false alarm, and your doc should be on your side when you are anxious. You care for two and you will regret not going, and will always wonder 'Was it because I did not see my doctor when I had the chance?"

I am sorry for that down-post, and apologize if I possibly hurt anybody who knows too well what I mean with this post. I do not want to stirr up old memories, but if you are pregnant and feel something is different, ask your doctor, please. Let them roll their eyes or whatever, but your unborn child should be worth it and sometimes getting medical help in time will save a life.



Edit:  I think I have been bad at explaining anything in this one, so I felt I had to add this now. It was a disaster scenario of mine, what could go wrong while we are on board of this darn plane, with insufficient medical aid and then preterm labour sets in. Basically, it is just my imagination running wild (feels a bit like pms on speed). I don't know why, but somehow these thoughts were very unsettling for me.
I should have gone into the garden, instead of being so unreasonable. But I stick to my recommendation to see your gynaecologist rather too often than not. Sorry for the trouble I have caused.