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Wednesday, July 8, 2015

We are doing fine


As usual, my original plan was to post far earlier. I had written down some, pregnancy related, but then I changed it all again and again after talking to my besty Amy.
She has hit an emotional low, she is in a very difficult situation that slowly seems to clear up again though. This is about love, so it can be tricky, oh heck, it definitely is complicated and tricky. However she is taking the right steps and all will be good I hope. But it has taken more than two weeks by now for me to figure out that all will come to a good ending. There is still a lot of struggling going on in her, and for Amy nothing is really solved yet, but she also is a very responsible woman and she has all the good characteristics you could wish for. And since I have bragged about her in other posts, :) some do already know that she is a real keeper. So, I am pretty sure she will do the right thing. Short version: It is an intense time for her, I wouldn't want to be her right now, and I'd never want to be in her current situation.
Sorry for being this enigmatic here. Maybe this was more like sorting things for myself, and I really couldn't put more about Amy's trouble here.



Holiday news
I hope Amy will solve this within the next two weeks. If not, I’ll be in real trouble with hubby, because we’ll go on a trip to the coast (oh yes!), and I can only go when Amy is in the clear (oh no!). This time it is not off to Britain, not even far away from Hamburg, instead it is a nice little holiday trip to the North Sea for a few days. 
I wanted us to go and meet family on the little island again, but hubby didn’t want to. He was so absolutely against it, that I had asked more than once if there was something going on which I should know. Rare occasion that I am like that, it sort of made me feel rather confrontational and pushy, which is awful. 
It is still a strange sort of behaviour from hubby's side. He was pretty vague about his reasons, and somehow I am almost expecting my in laws to pop up out of nowhere while we are at the Sea. But if I really expect that and it doesn’t happen then, I’ll be too disappointed. So, no expectations, instead I’ll just go with the flow and enjoy the time we have there. :) Oh, woohoo! This means hubby has time, which has been rather scarce lately !!!! 



Bump news
Finally, my belly is looking like a bump! I look less overstuffed, and a little bit more like pregnant now. :) I love that, it is so much better for my body image, and I don’t have to explain every second minute that I eat for two. Ok, I might take that too literally at times and have eaten for two adults now and then, not only the obligatory 300 calories more. Yep, I know I’ll suffer a lot next year when I want to get rid of extra weight. Nevertheless, for now, all is good. Week 14 means that baby is about the size of a lemon, fine, but I love that with the beginning of the second trimester baby is much safer again.
The other good news is that I did not really doubt that she’d be fine. This is an achievement for me. Feeling like this is awesome and I have not known that much confidence in my bump before. With Tilda I felt pretty safe after week 32, but this time I have been better from the start and felt like nothing could get between baby and me at all.
I have only had a little morning sickness, which is currently almost gone, and my cravings are still about spicy things. Yeah, and when I eat that, it seems I get heartburn from it. But I can handle that. :) You know what is best? It is summer, Tilda will start making her own real steps soon and I am not too bumpy to help her. We can do all sorts of things together in this year’s summer! Woohoo! Awesome.



Tilda news
So far, Tilda is standing, but not walking yet. However she can work her way up from sitting to standing alone, too. Sitting down is slightly bumpy at times, but her bum is well-padded, so she doesn’t worry much, … if she falls on her bottom, that is. A few days ago she landed on her face, but it didn't bother her. Seems to have been a recurring experience. 
She is becoming quite a character now. Hubby and I had discussions about that. From her looks, she is so much daddy’s girl. Hubby says from what she does, she’s mommy’s girl. That’s because she loves putting things into boxes. :) I can’t let her play in the kitchen when I work there, too dangerous, but I do give her some Tupperware and she has lots of blocks. I showed her how to put these into the boxes and she still does that all the time now. Put them in, empty box again, put blocks in, empty box. Oh, when she’s in the playpen it goes like put them in, empty box outside playpen, protest until mommy gives them back to her. :)
I am not always sure if it is her or me who really has bouts of separation anxiety. But I am getting much better about it (really!!!). Tilda on the other hand has had some bad moments when I was around the corner where she couldn't see me and crying like mad because of it. The door was open, she could hear me, but could not come because of the safety gate. I think this is something she has to get used to. I am not away, she can always hear me, most of the time she is right with me, but sometimes not. Well, we are both learning and we are in this together; it is the first time for both of us. :) 




Exercise, hormones and corner time
Apart from collecting things for Tilda, we do more of our morning walk than ever, but last year’s rule about not going into the forest/fields alone is there for good. I got a reminder about that when this crazy customer of hubby’s turned up at our house earlier this year. As it turns out, this guy was a bigger problem for hubby than he had told me, but it seems to be ok now.
So far this year the morning walk has become a wonderful tradition which has given Amy and me lots of time to talk. Now, with the hot weather we have not always been walking through the forest, sometimes we only walked to a little café (no coffee for me, no thanks). I am not like avoiding exercise though. Exercise is important, and I love it, even though I am not overdoing sports either, but I do a little something every day. I am fully back into yoga and do some extra swimming too, but only to feel good. Walking is ok, but running? No thank you, maybe next year.

In general I think that Tilda and I are doing a great job at keeping everything around the house going. Accordingly, corner time is rare at the moment. The last one I got was because I was pretty snappish towards hubby. I have no idea what I was up to, but I was pretty moody that day. Actually I think that I am pretty moody in general lately, not too horrible, but sometimes I am overwhelmed, even by little things. Monday I found some cute little feathers next to our door, and I could see that a cat had eaten the little bird they belonged to. Well, there are cats around, and they do hunt, I know all that. My tears were rolling nevertheless and I felt silly. It happens just as easily in other moments, and I am glad that this is not always about sadness.

Anyways, hubby was so right with giving me time in the corner to come to my senses again after I had been snappy, but this was one of the hot days and I start having problems with swollen ankles while standing. So, instead of standing I was ordered on the floor with a blanket underneath, feet up against the wall. It felt great and actually it was not like a discipline measure for me, I found it yoga-esque and after a while hubby brought Tilda and made this the best corner time ever. She was moving through the office like a pro, hubby had an eye on her, because I was still not allowed to leave my place, but I was allowed to look what she was doing. So, actually I have been lounging on the floor, feet up the wall, nothing to do, only watch our little kiddo discover the office. It was family quality time. :) It worked, I was so deeply relaxed. :)
Well, there has been another sort of corner time, but that was in May, which feels  pretty long ago. However that one sucked, as a result I’ll try to stay out of the corner for the coming weeks.


Sue and Martin – Lost and forgotten
Haha, I still have three Sue and Martin stories in store which I found again among my unpublished posts. You know what’s best about that? They are almost like unknown stories for me too, as I barely remember a word of them, because I wrote them last year, under the influence of preggo brain. So, I guess I’ll better rewrite them before putting them here, … under the influence of preggo brain, oh my. Currently I am into forgetting things. I keep writing everything on my post its, and that helps a lot. What I do not want is forget something that involves hubby. He does understand that I might be a bit more touched these days, but so far he is really nice about that. I think he is just as happy as I am, because his wife is so sure all will be well. :) 


Wishing you all a wonderful second half of the week!
 


15 comments :

  1. Hey Nina...thank you for the updates. So happy to read that your bump and and Tilda are coming along so well. Please give Tilda kisses, hugs and tummy tickles from auntie Cat. ;)

    Hugs and blessings...Cat

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    1. Hi Cat, somehow life is pretty busy for us lately, and in addition I am probably bad at structuring our days better, so that I could write more often (which I would love to). I’ll try hard to be better. :) Tilda got the extra quality time from auntie Cat! She loves that and it was fun time for both of us. :)

      hugs

      Nina

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  2. I am so glad you posted! It seems as though everything is going pretty darn perfect for you guys!
    Tilda straightening up to fall down on her bum! What a great picture I visualized in my head!
    That creepy guy showing up at your house however.....Awful!
    Keep us posted with all the news!

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    1. Hi Minelle, when I watch Tilda I am always wondering how quick Tilda grows and how fast this last year has passed. She is close to walking and she has become pretty quick all in all. :) This guy has not been out to harass us here at home, I think, but he definitely crossed a line and has definitely more money than brains which let him think he could do whatever he wanted to. Absolutely creepy, and I am pretty useless in such situations. I am just glad that hubby was able to handle that. But apart from that we are having a great time. I’ll try to blog more again. :)

      hugs

      Nina

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  3. HI Nina, Oh I am so glad that everything is going so well for you all. This pregnancy is going to whiz by and soon we will be waiting that news!!
    Hope you all have a lovely summer holiday too, hugs and kisses for Tilda
    love Jan,xx

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    1. Hi Jan, you are so right, this time I do not even have time to report often enough about my bump. This pregnancy is running so fast that I do not even have time to think much about it. :) In a way I’d like to have more time to enjoy it, but I do feel great (in general) and Tilda keeps me busy, so I’ll just go with the flow. :) Hubby is still rather silent about our holiday trip, but all is fine with my in laws. He told me that they won’t be here this summer. :( This is sort of really bad news, I’d love to see them. But we’ll enjoy the summer holidays that we have and try to make the best of it. And I gave Tilda your hugs and kisses. Both of us love that. :)

      hugs and love

      Nina

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  4. Hi Nina, great to hear from you, thank you for the update :) So glad to hear things are going well for you and that Tilda and bump are doing well. Tilda standing and falling on her bum made me smile :)

    That certainly does sound like the best corner time ever. Seems hubby was right:)

    Sending positive thoughts that Amy resolves things and hope you have a wonderful time away.

    Hugs
    Roz

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    1. Hi Roz, Tilda and bump are definitely thriving. :) Tilda is moving much quicker on all fours, so this is where I have to look to get after her, the standing is still rather wobbly, so there I have to make sure she sits on her bum and does not fall. She is doing a great job with that though and can hold herself up longer and longer. This sort of corner time is great fun to do. I loved it and having more of this would be wonderful. :) The things Amy is going through are still not completely solved, but she is getting through it, slowly. I want her in a better place again soon and simply hope to be able to help her.

      hugs

      Nina

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  5. So pleased all is going well. Second time round is different, you know what to expect and feel, and it helps.
    Once Tilda starts walking, you'll be running after her. They get a speed up toddlers!
    hugs
    DF

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    1. Hi DF, you are absolutely right, this time is totally different, first of all because I have less time than before, but I had thought the physical part would be sort of harder. Instead my morning sickness is almost gone and I don’t have any major troubles. Cool! :)
      Tilda learns being quicker on all fours, so I can easily see what will happen when she really walks. I’ll need new trainers for that time!

      hugs

      Nina

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  6. Ni Na - great hearing from you and getting caught up on all that is going on in your life. So glad the pregnancy is going well and that you are soon to go on a vacation to the sea, always a beautiful thing.

    I understand about the stories. I have to do the same thing because I can't remember and I don't have 'pregnancy' brain. I just plain forget.

    As DF said, once Tilda starts walking, you'll be running after her and she won't stop until ...

    Have a wonderful trip and good thoughts for positive outcomes for Amy.

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    1. Hi Sunny, I do enjoy this pregnancy so much. Up to now I have no real problems and I make it my feel-good time for as long as I can. Woohoo, the trip to the sea will be great, we love that place and it means we will have time to connect. Wonderful.
      Although Amy won’t be with us, I hope so much that she’ll be better soon, but I think she is getting there.
      It was fun to read the stories again, but I think they really need some rewriting from my side. I’ll see what I am able to do. One was pretty much on the extremely naughty side of things and I have no idea yet what to do.
      Oh yes, I can only agree with you, I’ll be running, once Tilda starts walking. :) She is learning things quickly, so it might not really be long until the more demanding times begin. :)

      hugs

      Nina

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  7. Hi Ni Na,

    Congrats on your pregnancy! And at 14 weeks, you really are eating for two now. :D And sleeping for two!
    Hope you have a great trip to the Nordsee!

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    1. Hi Julia, thank you! I definitely heed this eating for two, and after a bad start when I had serious troubles finding sleep, I have been getting much better with that. And since the weather has greatly improved, I am finally able to use our hammock in the garden, my favourite place. Due to some unexpected problems with granny we have postponed our trip till Wednesday, but then we'll be at the sea, yep at the Nordsee. If I got that right you are from the south.

      Liebe Grüße :) and hugs

      Nina

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    2. I am from Osnabrueck. :D

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