My good friend - the washing machine :)

Ok, this is the final proof that my hormones have taken over, because currently, my libido has reached an all time high. Hubby has always had his way with me and that has always been so exciting that I would not have thought it possible to ever reach a moment where my sexdrive would go beyond what I have had up to now. 

But since Tuesday, I have felt like a sex-emergency from the moment I woke up till bedtime, and it does not stop when I am in bed. Hubby is very pleased with that, because I am responsive to the smallest sexual allusions and I am fantasizing about sex in the most inappropriate moments, too. Go into the kitchen and try to cut a long and thick cucumber, very fresh and juicy, hard and good-looking…. You see the epic dimension of my problem….yes, there are a lot of fresh veggies in our kitchen. :) 

And there is no way out. If I go to the washing machine I feel like jumping right onto it and let it start. First the quick wash program, for the first aid of the needy one on top of it. And afterwards I want the really slow and long wash program.  For the third round I could use the delicate wash .... If only I could. I have to stop myself from getting too near to the washing machine, because this is so tempting. :) I have just leaned against it this morning, only for a moment while it was spinning and it felt so good. I felt as if I was glued to it, but since I am not allowed to do that what I wanted to, I left the room quickly. But if my libido goes on being like that,  I will have to give our washing machine a nice name to make it easier for me to be friends with it. ;) 

Have you ever tried to go shopping while you are full of naughty thoughts about everything?  Try not to watch men, try not to compare your breasts to other women. I am pretty glad that I did not need to go shopping for dresses this week. Half naked in a dressing room and naughty  fantasies. OmG. If this continues for longer, I will either ask hubby to go shopping for me, or I will ask him for sex before shopping. I am serious about it. This is the first time ever in my life that I have looked at some of the men's bodybuilding magazines of our newsagents and thought they are cute guys.

Well, at the moment it is a little awkward, but later today, when hubby returns, we'll see. Seriously, it is not  as it was when hubby denied orgasms last year, it's just that I am the epitome of the horny housewife at the moment. It might change again in a few days, it's just the hormones and actually I feel wonderful. But I guess I have never had more ideas about what the things in and around the house could be used for if I took them to the bedroom. :) 

Give me sex - no wait, chocolate, no sex, I don't know anymore, I am all lost atm

If you have read my last entry, you know what I felt like then. This is about one hundred gazillions worse than ever. Master has not granted me anything that could give me some release, though I really have to admit that it is my own fault by now. Right in the middle of Master's game of tease and denial my monthly need for chocolate, additional hugging, sex, if possible and all the other things, set in. I am emotionally out of balance at the moment, which is just the result of my silly hormones, and I am still extremely frustrated, because Master would not touch me sexually this week, because I misbehaved. Taking cold showers does not help at all against sexual desires, it is only good to get a nice and healthy skin! And to add to that, during my period I don't like cold water at all. So, whatever is going to happen this week, I have this feeling that not much is going to be good about it.
I was out of focus and started being a brat and behaved the way I should not. Pouting was the nicest bit of it, but because Master likes my mouth a lot and because he knows what's working in me these days, it was not part of the real problem (trying to avoid following rules, starting arguments without reason, doing chores badly, not doing chores, because I forgot about them and grouching among other things). I did not use swear words, though I felt like it, but I feel bad, because I really know that I was bratty, at least yesterday and Monday. Today I am all sorry, and Master knows that. He is around to spend time with me, which is lovely, so I get a lot of hugs, we talk a lot, he openly shows a lot of love and affection towards me.  Actually, I am so glad about this that I could cry, but on the other hand I also have a really bad conscience, because I was such a brat. My behaviour was not directed against him, it was against anybody and anything and against myself. There will be no punishment for me at all at the moment, apart from me still remaining sexually frustrated, because he won't give me a climax this week. He told me that is more than enough to bear for me this week and all will be good again, if I try hard to behave my best. Jogging did not help much against my frustration and bad conscience, and the dark grey weather outside just made me feel depressive (don't worry, I am not). Chocolate is good, but even though I love it, I stop eating after a few minutes, because I feel fat then. I am not fat, just vain, but whatever I do, does not help much. I am not sure whether I would get a spanking, if I asked for one, but I am close to asking for it, so that I could have a true ventile for my frustration, because that is still lingering in me and I hate that feeling. Well, I don't know yet what to do, but at least I have apologized and I really regret that I misbehaved. Still, this mix of being horny and frustrated from it, and at the same time, not being able to calm down because of the hormones is a horrible mix for me, hard to endure, and surely hard to endure for my Master as well. Where is my chocolate? Afterwards I could go jogging again. Oh, it is dark outside, so I would not be allowed to leave the house alone, no sexual activity in sight, well, I might give the cold and hot water another try before I definitely will ask for a therapeutic spanking from Master, otherwise I am never gonna sleep for the rest of this week.

Sorry for my rambling