sexually frustrated meets horny

Master did it again, he has started another round of tease and denial. I am still waiting for sexual release, but no, not yet. Slaves can wait. Instead, since I am emotionally stable again,  he took his time with me in the kitchen. Actually, this was only a short encounter, but it was enough to return me into this state of a walking erogenous zone again. Well, I can breathe it away.... no not really.
First he touched my left nipple, only by accident, of course.... I am wearing a very soft cream-coloured silk blouse today, so you can imagine what it looked like the same moment, when my nipples both came forward. I only thought 'what the heck ...' and he had his most devilish grin in his face and mine went all red. At first, I had wanted to start preparing lunch, but that thought was gone immediately. Instead my hope grew that finally, after this whole week, where he had barely touched me (all disciplin, yeah, sure), he would be nice and generous and help me get what I wanted. Nope, you know better.
Master turned directly behind me and just ordered me to bend over (my hopes were still high and any touch of his would bring me closer again, it is that easy at the moment) and he pulled my knickers down and my skirt up. Mmmhhhh, Yes, please Master, continue, which he actually did, very slowly, but only with two fingers, his thumb and his pointer, he used them on and around my clit, very slowly.
I mean, we both knew that it would not need much to finish me and he deliberately brought me really close, so that I could already see heaven. Only to fall down again. He virtually cooed into my ear that I am a good girl and would earn my reward. I could not see him then, because my eyes were still closed, but I could really hear him grin at me. He was kind enough to pull my skirt down again, after he had completely disarranged me within around two minutes. I kicked away my knickers in frustration, which he laughed at, but he took them with him then. I guess this is his version of adult family entertainment, but not really mine. Still, my hopes are high enough to wonder how long he really wants to continues this. He did not leave the impression that he wanted me to suffer forever, but he definitely enjoys showing me who is in control. Oh, lunch was nice too, btw.

Give me sex - no wait, chocolate, no sex, I don't know anymore, I am all lost atm

If you have read my last entry, you know what I felt like then. This is about one hundred gazillions worse than ever. Master has not granted me anything that could give me some release, though I really have to admit that it is my own fault by now. Right in the middle of Master's game of tease and denial my monthly need for chocolate, additional hugging, sex, if possible and all the other things, set in. I am emotionally out of balance at the moment, which is just the result of my silly hormones, and I am still extremely frustrated, because Master would not touch me sexually this week, because I misbehaved. Taking cold showers does not help at all against sexual desires, it is only good to get a nice and healthy skin! And to add to that, during my period I don't like cold water at all. So, whatever is going to happen this week, I have this feeling that not much is going to be good about it.
I was out of focus and started being a brat and behaved the way I should not. Pouting was the nicest bit of it, but because Master likes my mouth a lot and because he knows what's working in me these days, it was not part of the real problem (trying to avoid following rules, starting arguments without reason, doing chores badly, not doing chores, because I forgot about them and grouching among other things). I did not use swear words, though I felt like it, but I feel bad, because I really know that I was bratty, at least yesterday and Monday. Today I am all sorry, and Master knows that. He is around to spend time with me, which is lovely, so I get a lot of hugs, we talk a lot, he openly shows a lot of love and affection towards me.  Actually, I am so glad about this that I could cry, but on the other hand I also have a really bad conscience, because I was such a brat. My behaviour was not directed against him, it was against anybody and anything and against myself. There will be no punishment for me at all at the moment, apart from me still remaining sexually frustrated, because he won't give me a climax this week. He told me that is more than enough to bear for me this week and all will be good again, if I try hard to behave my best. Jogging did not help much against my frustration and bad conscience, and the dark grey weather outside just made me feel depressive (don't worry, I am not). Chocolate is good, but even though I love it, I stop eating after a few minutes, because I feel fat then. I am not fat, just vain, but whatever I do, does not help much. I am not sure whether I would get a spanking, if I asked for one, but I am close to asking for it, so that I could have a true ventile for my frustration, because that is still lingering in me and I hate that feeling. Well, I don't know yet what to do, but at least I have apologized and I really regret that I misbehaved. Still, this mix of being horny and frustrated from it, and at the same time, not being able to calm down because of the hormones is a horrible mix for me, hard to endure, and surely hard to endure for my Master as well. Where is my chocolate? Afterwards I could go jogging again. Oh, it is dark outside, so I would not be allowed to leave the house alone, no sexual activity in sight, well, I might give the cold and hot water another try before I definitely will ask for a therapeutic spanking from Master, otherwise I am never gonna sleep for the rest of this week.

Sorry for my rambling