As usual,
my original plan was to post far earlier. I had written down some, pregnancy
related, but then I changed it all again and again after talking to my besty
Amy.
She has hit
an emotional low, she is in a very difficult situation that slowly seems to
clear up again though. This is about love, so it can be tricky, oh heck, it
definitely is complicated and tricky. However she is taking the right steps and
all will be good I hope. But it has taken more than two weeks by now for me to figure out
that all will come to a good ending. There is still a lot of struggling going
on in her, and for Amy nothing is really solved yet, but she also is a
very responsible woman and she has all the good characteristics you could wish for.
And since I have bragged about her in other posts, :) some do already know that
she is a real keeper. So, I am pretty sure she will do the right thing. Short version: It is an intense time for her, I wouldn't want to be her right now, and I'd never want to be in her current situation.
Sorry
for
being this enigmatic here. Maybe this was more like sorting things for
myself, and I really couldn't put more about Amy's trouble here.
Holiday news
I hope Amy
will solve this within the next two weeks. If not, I’ll be in real trouble with
hubby, because we’ll go on a trip to the coast (oh yes!), and I can only go when Amy is
in the clear (oh no!). This time it is not off to Britain, not even far away from Hamburg, instead it is a nice little holiday trip to the North Sea for a few days.
I wanted us
to go and meet family on the little island again, but hubby didn’t want to. He was so absolutely against it, that I had asked more than once if there was something going on which I should know. Rare occasion that I am like that, it sort of made me feel rather confrontational and pushy, which is awful.
It is still a strange sort of behaviour from hubby's side. He was pretty vague about his reasons, and somehow I am almost expecting my in
laws to pop up out of nowhere while we are at the Sea. But if I really expect
that and it doesn’t happen then, I’ll be too disappointed. So, no expectations,
instead I’ll just go with the flow and enjoy the time we have there. :) Oh,
woohoo! This means hubby has time, which has been rather scarce lately !!!!
Bump news
Finally, my
belly is looking like a bump! I look less overstuffed, and a little bit more like
pregnant now. :) I love that, it is so much better for my body image, and I
don’t have to explain every second minute that I eat for two. Ok, I might take
that too literally at times and have eaten for two adults now and then, not
only the obligatory 300 calories more. Yep, I know I’ll suffer a lot next year
when I want to get rid of extra weight. Nevertheless, for now, all is good.
Week 14 means that baby is about the size of a lemon, fine, but I love that
with the beginning of the second trimester baby is much safer again.
The other
good news is that I did not really doubt that she’d be fine. This is an
achievement for me. Feeling like this is awesome and I have not known that much
confidence in my bump before. With Tilda I felt pretty safe after week 32, but
this time I have been better from the start and felt like nothing could get
between baby and me at all.
I have only
had a little morning sickness, which is currently almost gone, and my cravings
are still about spicy things. Yeah, and when I eat that, it seems I get
heartburn from it. But I can handle that. :) You know what is best? It is
summer, Tilda will start making her own real steps soon and I am not too bumpy to help
her. We can do all sorts of things together in this year’s summer! Woohoo! Awesome.
Tilda news
So far, Tilda
is standing, but not walking yet. However she can work her way up from sitting to
standing alone, too. Sitting down is slightly bumpy at times, but her bum is
well-padded, so she doesn’t worry much, … if she falls on her bottom, that is. A few days ago she landed on her face, but it didn't bother her. Seems to have been a recurring experience.
She is
becoming quite a character now. Hubby and I had discussions about that. From
her looks, she is so much daddy’s girl. Hubby says from what she does, she’s mommy’s
girl. That’s because she loves putting things into boxes. :) I can’t let her play
in the kitchen when I work there, too dangerous, but I do give her some
Tupperware and she has lots of blocks. I showed her how to put these into the
boxes and she still does that all the time now. Put them in, empty box again, put
blocks in, empty box. Oh, when she’s in the playpen it goes like put them in,
empty box outside playpen, protest until mommy gives them back to her. :)
I am not always sure if it is her or me who really has bouts of separation anxiety. But I am getting much better about it (really!!!). Tilda on the other hand has had some bad moments when I was around the corner where she couldn't see me and crying like mad because of it. The door was open, she could hear me, but could not come because of the safety gate. I think this is something she has to get used to. I am not away, she can always hear me, most of the time she is right with me, but sometimes not. Well, we are both learning and we are in this together; it is the first time for both of us. :)
Exercise, hormones and corner time
Apart from
collecting things for Tilda, we do more of our morning walk than ever, but last
year’s rule about not going into the forest/fields alone is there for good. I
got a reminder about that when this crazy customer of hubby’s turned up at our
house earlier this year. As it turns out, this guy was a bigger problem for
hubby than he had told me, but it seems to be ok now.
So far this
year the morning walk has become a wonderful tradition which has given Amy and
me lots of time to talk. Now, with the hot weather we have not always been walking
through the forest, sometimes we only walked to a little café (no coffee for me, no thanks). I
am not like avoiding exercise though. Exercise is important, and I love it, even
though I am not overdoing sports either, but I do a little something every day. I am
fully back into yoga and do some extra swimming too, but only to feel good. Walking
is ok, but running? No thank you, maybe next year.
In general
I think that Tilda and I are doing a great job at keeping everything around the
house going. Accordingly, corner time is rare at the moment. The last one I got
was because I was pretty snappish towards hubby. I have no idea what I was up
to, but I was pretty moody that day. Actually I think that I am pretty moody in
general lately, not too horrible, but sometimes I am overwhelmed, even by
little things. Monday I found some cute little feathers next to our door, and I could
see that a cat had eaten the little bird they belonged to. Well, there are cats
around, and they do hunt, I know all that. My tears were rolling nevertheless
and I felt silly. It happens just as easily in other moments, and I am glad that this is not always about sadness.
Anyways,
hubby was so right with giving me time in the corner to come to my senses again
after I had been snappy, but this was one of the hot days and I start having
problems with swollen ankles while standing. So, instead of standing I was ordered on the
floor with a blanket underneath, feet up against the wall. It felt great and
actually it was not like a discipline measure for me, I found it yoga-esque and after
a while hubby brought Tilda and made this the best corner time ever. She was moving
through the office like a pro, hubby had an eye on her, because I was still not
allowed to leave my place, but I was allowed to look what she was doing. So,
actually I have been lounging on the floor, feet up the wall, nothing to do,
only watch our little kiddo discover the office. It was family quality time. :) It worked, I was so deeply relaxed. :)
Well, there
has been another sort of corner time, but that was in May, which feels pretty long ago. However that one sucked, as a result I’ll
try to stay out of the corner for the coming weeks.
Sue and Martin – Lost and forgotten
Haha, I
still have three Sue and Martin stories in store which I found again among my
unpublished posts. You know what’s best about that? They are almost like unknown stories for me too, as
I barely remember a word of them, because I wrote them last year, under the influence of
preggo brain. So, I guess I’ll better rewrite them before putting them here, … under the influence of preggo brain, oh my. Currently I am into forgetting things. I keep writing everything on my
post its, and that helps a lot. What I do not want is forget something that
involves hubby. He does understand that I might be a bit more touched these
days, but so far he is really nice about that. I think he is just as happy
as I am, because his wife is so sure all will be well. :)
Wishing you all a wonderful second half of the week!
